Tag: mental health
Fog obstructs my view
Is it rolling off the water
Or from my meds
Is it forming above the surface
Or behind my eyes
OCD or Anxiety
Is it OCD or anxiety?
I just did
My cup is empty
Walking to the fridge
Past the bookshelf
That one book is askew
Walking to fridge
Am I walking to fast?
Denying help in the depths of a bottomless well.
How can something so severe be denied
An open wound ignored
Until it’s reflected on another
To deny help in the depths of a bottomless well
Ignoring the rope swinging toward you
For better or worse
Precipice of Loneliness
What is the word for pain so deep that sadness won’t suffice?
I finished season 1 of Thirteen Reasons Why and it’s the first screen adaptation that hit me harder than the novel. I binged the series because I couldn’t stop watching. I’d cut it off after a few episodes and inevitably give into the thoughts and cut it back on. I couldn’t stop thinking about it.
Credit to everyone involved with the show. I felt everything that was depicted, even the teenage angst. As vivid as my imagination can be when reading, rarely do I take on the characters’ emotions to the point I feel them in my chest or deep in the pit of my stomach.
I’ve never been suicidal, but I’ve lived through most of the emotions shown throughout the series (not just Hannah’s). I remember sitting on the floor thinking How did I get here? Why do I feel so empty? What is the word for pain so deep that sadness or anger won’t suffice? I said and thought dark things, but I never honestly considered taking my own life. Thirteen Reasons Why showed me how lonely it’s possible to be, even in this world where it’s hard to disconnect from anyone. ‘Lonely’ doesn’t do it justice.